Don’t Look Down

I’ve been writing discovery draft like crazy lately, and it’s always a humbling experience because the first drafts are so bad. I know they’re bad. I know while I’m typing that most of what’s going on the page is going to be deleted or rewritten, but I can’t get to where it’s got to be without starting with discovery. It isn’t even giving myself permission to suck, it’s accepting that whether or not I give myself permission, it’s going to suck. The whole time I’m doing it, I’m getting a much better grasp on the characters and the story (ye gods there are a lot of characters in this story), and I definitely have a better grip on the plot and the setting, but the suckage is still overwhelming. Still, the Discovery Draft mantra is “Don’t look down,” so I’m just sticking with the typing. All of which is to say, the posts this week are going to be crummy or non-existent because this stuff I’m writing is too bad to show even you guys, and you’re used to my discovery drafts. I did figure out how much money Nick has (it involved a compound interest calculator and googling for interest rates at various times in history) and I played around with some of the list you all made, so there’s that: The great thing about doing the signs is that I start to visualize the town. So really, PROGRESS! But boy, this stuff sucks.

8 thoughts on “Don’t Look Down

  1. Makes sense, though. And encourages me: I must just plunge in and start trying to tell my story, even though I don’t think I’ve got nearly enough to go on.

    Well, when I’ve thrown off this bug that’s making me feel pathetic.

    1. You never have enough in the beginning. So you put everything you have down on paper and that frees up room in your brain for more.
      At least, that’s my theory. Just keep writing what you have and the rest will show up.

  2. I love that you know it is going to suck. AND that you keep going.

    I have often let myself be paralysed on a writing or sewing endeavour because of the sucktitude.

    It is this year that I finally girded myself and started to do a little bit toward a sewing task every day. It is now complete. I turned an average-looking kaftan into a relatively cute dress!

    Go me. Go you. And go everybody.

    Embrace the sucktitude.

  3. I love the BeelzePub and Imp! and the Idle Hands. Well, all of them. And that you’re forging ahead.

    Is it possible to forge backward?

    1. Forge backwards? kind of

      Some gentlemen in London decided to try making knives by buying a lot of metal and beating it on a furnace until they got a knife, through beginners luck, they made a nice knife, then spent the next couple of years trying to make something that good again.


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